Being human

I’ve kind of abandoned this blog, maybe trying to make one entry per week is putting the bar way to up so I’m just going to aim for 2 entries per month. I’ll try to give a quick update on both poker and real life once every 15 days or so.

A lot of people have recently asked me how I have got better in poker over a short span of time. To be honest this goes all the way to life mentality and not just poker itself. Since a long time from now (actually about 8-9 months) I wake up every day knowing I’m human and therefore I’m full of mistakes and defects. Everyone hates being wrong. Waking up with this idea every day opens my eyes and lets me see my mistakes. Knowing I have them makes me want to become a better person than I am. Each day I wake up trying to become a better version of myself.

This translates directly in to poker. Every day I try to be better. Sometimes it’s all about humility. It’s not easy to see your mistakes and sometimes you need feedback from people outside your mind (both for poker and life). If you want to become better at something you must first acknowledge you’re actually bad at it. Look for help! Coaches, forums and poker playing friends are a great way to get you in the correct poker mindset. Lucky me I have all three of them.

Believe me, getting in this way of thinking helps you feel better about yourself day to day.

So updates:

Pokerwise

Couldn’t be happier. I got the chance to join Team Bogan being staked by the Salter brothers. Although I’m pretty comfortable with my game and I can’t wait to play with my own money I’m also really happy with the way things have gone so far since I’m part of the team. Great place to discuss strategy and they’re always there to cheer you up when poker is heartbreaking.

As you know I moved up to 8s and 3+r and started crushing them. I pushed myself to quick to 15s and didn't realize how big of a step it was between games. Needless to say I caught a downswing of over 4k. I didn’t let this get to me and grinded out of it. As for now I’m playing 8s, 15s and MTTs turbo all the way to 27s.

Graphs or it didn’t happen:

15s

 3rs

 8s

 Overall

 MTTs

Lifewise

Same as above. Everything is good. School could be better but I actually don’t care that much about it. I’m going to San Diego to play the WSOPc (I’m going to sell shares of a package with the events I´m going to play). Also I’ve been with my girlfriend for a little above 1 month and I’m very happy. We’re always in the same book and this make the relationship pretty easy going and constructive. She’s very intelligent and just as a plus she is very pretty.

I also wanted to use this blog to tell everyone whose life I’ve impacted in a negative way that I’m really sorry for all trouble I may have caused because of my nervousness, immaturity and fear. There’s no way I can’t  go back but there’s a big pack of people who I owe and apology, you know who you are.

GL at the tables!

Going through my old blog...

I started playing and immediately found it was a way to make money and be free, I just didn't know how much money was there to be made.

I left my city the first time to give a shot at poker and "play for a living". Today I read my old blog and found this comment in the blog that talked about me decided to leave my life and take a shot at something else.

Spanish 

A que Gonzoberto tan aventao. Mira cabrón, la vida esta llena de gente-zombie que vive amargada y arrepentida de no haber seguido sus sueños. Gente que tuvo alguna pasión y que por alguna razón u otra la dejo por un "trabajo seguro".

La verdad es que no hay nada seguro y por eso es importante tener la mayor cantidad de puertas abiertas conforme avanzamos en la vida. Entonces, lo único que si te recomiendo es que tengas esto presente conforme vas avanzando en este proceso. Trata de tener opciones y diferentes recursos; en términos pocarescos: Trata de Tener Outs. Este asunto de la vida no tiene que ser todo o nada, hay muchos puntos intermedios que al mismo tiempo nos ayudan a lograr nuestros objetivos.

No se bien los detalles de tu decisión, pero el simple hecho de que busques seguir lo que en realidad te apasiona me da gusto por ti. Todas las grandes historias comienzan con un sueño. Nadie te puede negar la oportunidad de seguir el tuyo. Estoy seguro que esta ha sido una decisión muy pensada, ya tienes bastante tiempo mencionándola. Te deseo lo mejor y no tengo la menor duda de que siendo respetuoso de tu proceso y tomando cada paso que des con seriedad y profesionalismo cumplirás tus metas.

-3dgar

English

Oh what a daring Bonzo. Look man, life is full of zombie people who live their lives in bitterness and regret of not pursuing their dreams. People that once had a passion and for some reason let it slip away for a "safe job".

The truth is there is nothing that's safe and because of that it's important to have the highest quantity of doors open while we're walking through life. Then, the only thing I recommend to you is to have this in your mind while you're advancing through this process. Try to have options and different resources... in poker terms: Try to have outs. Life is not about everything or nothing, we have a lot of intermediate spots that in the meanwhile help us achieve our objectives. 

I don't really know the details of your decision, but the simple fact that you're trying to follow what really makes you passionate makes me be happy for you. All big stories start with a dream. No one can deny you the chance to follow yours. I'm sure that this decision has been thought over, you've been bringing it up for a long time now. I wish you the best and have no doubt that being respectful in your process and taking every step you take with seriousness and professionalism you'll achieve your goals. 

-3dgar

I barely know 3dgar and in fact I don't know him at all IRL. Even though this guy has been the one I choose to talk to whenever I hit a dead end or a crossroad in my life. I've noticed he is always there to give advice and try to help me clear my mind. He is a great writer and a hell of a friend. That small speech helped me out a lot during the transition of my old life to what I like to call my "new life".

Maybe it might sound kind of tribal to you since you were not in my shoes when I first read it but still I'll share it here with everyone and this way I'm sure I won't forget how important this was once to me.

Here is a link to his blog which I widely recommend: http://www.pokerwithzen.com/

Thanks a lot man!

 

Easier than it seems.

You decide when to soar. When you finally make up your mind to give everything for that something you want the whole big picture becomes clear. The moment from when you decide "FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE, TIME TO SHINE" to the moment when you're above just watching everyone else fall apart trying to get that, get there or get her is all about sacrifice.

Not everybody knows what sacrifice really is. So far I don't get it completely, a real genius gets messy in the middle of creation and leaves everything else on other part while giving every single possible moment to focus on the place where his eyes are on. Right now my eyes are on the summit of liberty, I'll get there. Only problem is when someone gets you out of your A game and makes you focus on something else... Maybe I actually want to focus in whatever that person is going to show me.