Going through my old blog...

I started playing and immediately found it was a way to make money and be free, I just didn't know how much money was there to be made.

I left my city the first time to give a shot at poker and "play for a living". Today I read my old blog and found this comment in the blog that talked about me decided to leave my life and take a shot at something else.

Spanish 

A que Gonzoberto tan aventao. Mira cabrón, la vida esta llena de gente-zombie que vive amargada y arrepentida de no haber seguido sus sueños. Gente que tuvo alguna pasión y que por alguna razón u otra la dejo por un "trabajo seguro".

La verdad es que no hay nada seguro y por eso es importante tener la mayor cantidad de puertas abiertas conforme avanzamos en la vida. Entonces, lo único que si te recomiendo es que tengas esto presente conforme vas avanzando en este proceso. Trata de tener opciones y diferentes recursos; en términos pocarescos: Trata de Tener Outs. Este asunto de la vida no tiene que ser todo o nada, hay muchos puntos intermedios que al mismo tiempo nos ayudan a lograr nuestros objetivos.

No se bien los detalles de tu decisión, pero el simple hecho de que busques seguir lo que en realidad te apasiona me da gusto por ti. Todas las grandes historias comienzan con un sueño. Nadie te puede negar la oportunidad de seguir el tuyo. Estoy seguro que esta ha sido una decisión muy pensada, ya tienes bastante tiempo mencionándola. Te deseo lo mejor y no tengo la menor duda de que siendo respetuoso de tu proceso y tomando cada paso que des con seriedad y profesionalismo cumplirás tus metas.

-3dgar

English

Oh what a daring Bonzo. Look man, life is full of zombie people who live their lives in bitterness and regret of not pursuing their dreams. People that once had a passion and for some reason let it slip away for a "safe job".

The truth is there is nothing that's safe and because of that it's important to have the highest quantity of doors open while we're walking through life. Then, the only thing I recommend to you is to have this in your mind while you're advancing through this process. Try to have options and different resources... in poker terms: Try to have outs. Life is not about everything or nothing, we have a lot of intermediate spots that in the meanwhile help us achieve our objectives. 

I don't really know the details of your decision, but the simple fact that you're trying to follow what really makes you passionate makes me be happy for you. All big stories start with a dream. No one can deny you the chance to follow yours. I'm sure that this decision has been thought over, you've been bringing it up for a long time now. I wish you the best and have no doubt that being respectful in your process and taking every step you take with seriousness and professionalism you'll achieve your goals. 

-3dgar

I barely know 3dgar and in fact I don't know him at all IRL. Even though this guy has been the one I choose to talk to whenever I hit a dead end or a crossroad in my life. I've noticed he is always there to give advice and try to help me clear my mind. He is a great writer and a hell of a friend. That small speech helped me out a lot during the transition of my old life to what I like to call my "new life".

Maybe it might sound kind of tribal to you since you were not in my shoes when I first read it but still I'll share it here with everyone and this way I'm sure I won't forget how important this was once to me.

Here is a link to his blog which I widely recommend: http://www.pokerwithzen.com/

Thanks a lot man!

 

Easier than it seems.

You decide when to soar. When you finally make up your mind to give everything for that something you want the whole big picture becomes clear. The moment from when you decide "FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE, TIME TO SHINE" to the moment when you're above just watching everyone else fall apart trying to get that, get there or get her is all about sacrifice.

Not everybody knows what sacrifice really is. So far I don't get it completely, a real genius gets messy in the middle of creation and leaves everything else on other part while giving every single possible moment to focus on the place where his eyes are on. Right now my eyes are on the summit of liberty, I'll get there. Only problem is when someone gets you out of your A game and makes you focus on something else... Maybe I actually want to focus in whatever that person is going to show me.

First few words of a song

I've been very lucid lately songwriting-wise. I usually write in Spanish but this particular song will be in English. I just have 1 verse so far and here it is:

Waking up
between sheets of sorrow
screaming to the candle light.

Thinking about loneliness...

As strange as it might sound I'm not sad at all, but a recent talk with a friend got me thinking a lot about loneliness. I have only 1 true friend and even with him I don't share every aspect of my life. Call it protection, fear, selfdestruct syndrome or whatever but I just don't share my deep thoughts and my strange lifestyle with everyone.

Just a handful of people who surround me now what I do with my life... and of those not even one know what I think at all.

She started telling me about how she once had a relationship with someone and she was an open book with this guy. I immediately thought "Oh wait... I've never had anything like that". After talking to her I gave myself sometime to think about that and noticed I would really like to have something like that... no sex buddies, one night stand or a stupid close minded girlfriend, I would love to open up every single aspect of my life to someone.

I believe people who actually think and are not on the average (stupid) group are usually lonely. But not always.

I'm not searching for it but after today I'll try to stay more open to any possibilty.