I'll start this blog with my graph of this month so far:
Playing fpps sats I caught a huge heater and this means it's time to move up. I have to make a huge cashout to pay school by the end of the month so I was willing to stop having social life to try and win 2k this month. After this delicious heater I decided to take 3 days off poker (3rd day today) to feel the air for a while. Now I only want to grind because I finally have a healthy enough BR for 8s and 3rs. Since my coach says I'm ready for those stakes I'll be moving up this week.
So I haven't shared it with you people but the 29th of September I got a coach. Not my first one tbh, my first coach was "ihaterivers" great player... not so great student. He managed to make me think ABC poker in sngs and made me a winning player.
When I came back to Torreon, after playing live poker for a while, I had lost some level in this games and that was very obvious when after a 3k sample I was only winning 60c per game (20% roi).
I decided to stop the "mega high volume" bullshit and start playing a better game. I contacted Bfizz11 via his e mail and tried to get him interested in me. Lucky me he was. So far the game he is teaching me makes me think a lot more than I used to. I used to play 30 tables without a single timebank issue, now i can only play 18 and sometimes I timeout when I'm thinking a hand.
All this has been directly translated to my roi.
180s before Brian Fite (Bfizz11)
180s after Brian Fite (Bfizz11)
ROI comparison chart:
I recommend contacting Brian if your struggling, his fee is very low in comparison to results and time it takes to get results. Unique poker resume, he is in fact a bluefirepoker coach atm. Great coach, great friend.
I started playing and immediately found it was a way to make money and be free, I just didn't know how much money was there to be made.
I left my city the first time to give a shot at poker and "play for a living". Today I read my old blog and found this comment in the blog that talked about me decided to leave my life and take a shot at something else.
A que Gonzoberto tan aventao. Mira cabrón, la vida esta llena de gente-zombie que vive amargada y arrepentida de no haber seguido sus sueños. Gente que tuvo alguna pasión y que por alguna razón u otra la dejo por un "trabajo seguro".
La verdad es que no hay nada seguro y por eso es importante tener la mayor cantidad de puertas abiertas conforme avanzamos en la vida. Entonces, lo único que si te recomiendo es que tengas esto presente conforme vas avanzando en este proceso. Trata de tener opciones y diferentes recursos; en términos pocarescos: Trata de Tener Outs. Este asunto de la vida no tiene que ser todo o nada, hay muchos puntos intermedios que al mismo tiempo nos ayudan a lograr nuestros objetivos.
No se bien los detalles de tu decisión, pero el simple hecho de que busques seguir lo que en realidad te apasiona me da gusto por ti. Todas las grandes historias comienzan con un sueño. Nadie te puede negar la oportunidad de seguir el tuyo. Estoy seguro que esta ha sido una decisión muy pensada, ya tienes bastante tiempo mencionándola. Te deseo lo mejor y no tengo la menor duda de que siendo respetuoso de tu proceso y tomando cada paso que des con seriedad y profesionalismo cumplirás tus metas.
Oh what a daring Bonzo. Look man, life is full of zombie people who live their lives in bitterness and regret of not pursuing their dreams. People that once had a passion and for some reason let it slip away for a "safe job".
The truth is there is nothing that's safe and because of that it's important to have the highest quantity of doors open while we're walking through life. Then, the only thing I recommend to you is to have this in your mind while you're advancing through this process. Try to have options and different resources... in poker terms: Try to have outs. Life is not about everything or nothing, we have a lot of intermediate spots that in the meanwhile help us achieve our objectives.
I don't really know the details of your decision, but the simple fact that you're trying to follow what really makes you passionate makes me be happy for you. All big stories start with a dream. No one can deny you the chance to follow yours. I'm sure that this decision has been thought over, you've been bringing it up for a long time now. I wish you the best and have no doubt that being respectful in your process and taking every step you take with seriousness and professionalism you'll achieve your goals.
I barely know 3dgar and in fact I don't know him at all IRL. Even though this guy has been the one I choose to talk to whenever I hit a dead end or a crossroad in my life. I've noticed he is always there to give advice and try to help me clear my mind. He is a great writer and a hell of a friend. That small speech helped me out a lot during the transition of my old life to what I like to call my "new life".
Maybe it might sound kind of tribal to you since you were not in my shoes when I first read it but still I'll share it here with everyone and this way I'm sure I won't forget how important this was once to me.
You decide when to soar. When you finally make up your mind to give everything for that something you want the whole big picture becomes clear. The moment from when you decide "FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE, TIME TO SHINE" to the moment when you're above just watching everyone else fall apart trying to get that, get there or get her is all about sacrifice.
Not everybody knows what sacrifice really is. So far I don't get it completely, a real genius gets messy in the middle of creation and leaves everything else on other part while giving every single possible moment to focus on the place where his eyes are on. Right now my eyes are on the summit of liberty, I'll get there. Only problem is when someone gets you out of your A game and makes you focus on something else... Maybe I actually want to focus in whatever that person is going to show me.
As strange as it might sound I'm not sad at all, but a recent talk with a friend got me thinking a lot about loneliness. I have only 1 true friend and even with him I don't share every aspect of my life. Call it protection, fear, selfdestruct syndrome or whatever but I just don't share my deep thoughts and my strange lifestyle with everyone.
Just a handful of people who surround me now what I do with my life... and of those not even one know what I think at all.
She started telling me about how she once had a relationship with someone and she was an open book with this guy. I immediately thought "Oh wait... I've never had anything like that". After talking to her I gave myself sometime to think about that and noticed I would really like to have something like that... no sex buddies, one night stand or a stupid close minded girlfriend, I would love to open up every single aspect of my life to someone.
I believe people who actually think and are not on the average (stupid) group are usually lonely. But not always.
I'm not searching for it but after today I'll try to stay more open to any possibilty.
Bought a new Laptop, I was aiming for a desktop but grind couldn't be left waiting. I got the Dell Studio 1558. I've read a lot of bad reviews but I've also read a lot of good reviews so I decided to give it a go.
500GB memory HD
Intel Core I7 1.6GHz
4gb RAM DDR3
1 GB ATI Radeon HD5470
Seems enough to play a few video games and grind 30+ tables... tomorrow I'll give it it's first go, and hopefully in a few months I'll still be as happy as I am at this moment with my purchase.
This song is in spanish but it's also sickly good.
I`m gonna try to make this as easy to read as possible.
Started the month with ambition to grind that made me take shots to 8s as I've already told you. I felt comfortable with my game and manage to win a bit. But then i had to make a monster cashout that took me some steps behind my pace and decided to move back down until i regrind that specific cashout (more on it coming in a bit)
180s 8usd this month
180s 2.5usd this month
180s overall this month
45s 3.5usd this month
This month overall
180s since 20th of july (when I came back to my old city to grind)
My game in 45s has been a little off but I`m pretty happy with my 180s results overall 2.1kprofit in 2800sngs in 60 days sort of...
Ive been studying my game a lot lately and have found some flaws... I've been working on tighting them up and so far so good.
2 days ago I started exercising myself. Started this routines named "Insanity" and I feel debastated (which I guess means it's working). Working out has improved my tilt control, not sure how it is related but it has.
I had a pretty sick downswing lifewise. My laptop's ventilator burned and my whole laptop stopped working... instead of spending 200usd in a 3 year old laptop im going to buy myself a new desktop... this is not the only think that stopped working for me this month, my cellphone also stopped working. So to buy a new phone and new laptop: MEGA CASHOUT. I usually cashout 500-700 in a month, this month I cashout out over 2k but I'm sure the new grind station will motivate me enough to make up for it asap.
My roll is standing once again in 900usd + 300 in stellar rewards and fpps.
I've also given me the chance to meet people. I'm a bit of a closed to new relationships guy so this is like a break through.
Excersice+NewDesktop+NewCellphone+NewPeople= Month lifewise so far.
I hope I can keep this liferhythm. I barely have time for myself. If I'm not grinding then I'm in class... If I'm not in class or grinding I'm studying my game... If I'm not studying my game or grinding or in class I'm working out... If I'm not doing any of those I'm either drinking or sleeping (basic things in life).
As soon as i get my new desktop I will post pics and specs. GL at the tables!
Lately I've noticed I can´t spend my internet won money. I'd never played as much as I've been playing the past 2 months, and results are great so far, but somehow I don't feel comfortable cashing out. I only cashout to pay rent, gasoline and to eat.
While I lived in Mexico City I had no problem spending poker earned money (specially live poker) but I hate cashing out my internet roll, makes me feel vulnerable. I want that number to grow and that's the only real goal I've had since I moved back to my old city. I keep thinking to myself "if I still lived with my mom and she paid everything I would already have enough roll for xxxxxxx".
I'm no longer scaremoney as I was some months ago when every dime on the table gave me a headache. I've grown a lot from there and now I play as I should've always played... fearless of money. When time comes to cashout because I NEED to pay the rent and can no longer live out of any kind of food I find along the way is when I cashout. I think I need to get ahold of my financial life and have control on my expenses.
Downswings are nothing but that: "downswings". They don't depress me anymore, they don't affect my lifestyle anymore. Same with heaters, I love them, they increase my confidence and make me feel undestructible but I know they're heaters and just play them along. Apart from all that I'm really accurate when it comes to making an educated guess on how much I'm gonna win depending on how much I'm gonna play.
I write this blog for myself. The whole intention of writing this is getting my thoughts in order and being able to work with them without making stupid decisions without thinking them over. Writing them is the best way I've found to do this so far.
Once again this blog is for me.
It is to think about how much am I going to cashout. To stop being such a "pussy" when it comes the time I need money and start planning it before the time I need food comes. The problem with this is my thirst to move up stakes.
All my pokerfriends, or a big part of those, make fun of my stakes. "LOL you play 2usd tournaments! That's 20 pesos! HAHAHA stop feeling like some kind of god, you're playing micros!".
Reality is I play micros, but I got news for everyone of you... I WIN MORE THAN YOU! Being a 400buyin bankroll nit is one thing, but not being able to dominate a level and win a lot in that level is a whole other story. Even if you play nl100+ I´m happy winning 1.5k~ a month and taking my time to move up. When I do so I'll be sure to muck you guys.
Had to get that out of my mind. That is the reason that keeps me from enjoying my money, thirst. But it's not a thirst I evoked in first place, it's peer pressure thirst. I've made a whole plan to be grinding low stakes (instead of micros) by the first days of december and im sure I will do it.
I've taken my shots in 8usd 180man and I feel pretty comfortable with my game. I'm sure im gonna crush the limit once I decide to play 3+r and 8s only. Shots were supposed to give me confidence and they did. Basically all this blog is a note to myself:
"Stick to the plan, don't rush yourself and let haters hate... or just hate them back"
(I'll get back to you in 8-12 months when I'm making 4k-6k a month in midstakes)
Marathonic Session was a big fail, getting volumen without table ninja is really hard. Played 8.5 hours but couldn´t manage to keep more than 14-16 tables open, 18 tops and when I was deep I only played 10-11 tables at a time.
After 8 hours I had only played 100 games. Lame.
First days of september had been the same as the last weeks of august, breaking even. But a 180man reg helped me take the decision of mixing in one 8usd for every four 2.5usd I play. This meant an average buyin of 3.6usd, so even with my super nitty BR management system I'm overrolled for this. Gave it a go since the 2nd September.
Since the start of the month I've been running bad but getting in sick volume (still below the volume planned for the month but I'm sure I'll get ahead soon).
Results so far ar this:
180man $2.5s& 45man $3.5s in September
$8s in September
Month So Far (180man$2.5s+180man$8s+45man$3.5s)
So I was breaking even but only because I've been playing 8s, without those my graph would be more standard without the first games being breakeven.
I've been feeling very good about my game, in fact I've never felt this good. I believe this is thanks to my session review after the end of each session and thanks to some SnG regs which get together with me to talk about hands and strategy.
The plan is to stick with this method, 4 2.5usd for every 1 8usd for the rest of the month. Planning on playing in a 2:1 ratio instead of 4:1 by the first week of next month.
I had the sickest breakeven run ever! ... Ok, I love exagerations it's not the sickest breakeven run ever but it's still pretty sick:
750 sngs breaking even, and you can make it 900 if we add this first couple of days of September.
I accomplished my 50 SnGs a day goal, but I think i can do way better and 50 a day is a pretty mediocre rhythm so this month I'm aiming for at least 2k sngs.
$800 positive on my normal grind.
During August me and SnG grinder "nala1988" made a profit probet for the month. $100 were at stake and by the 20th of august we were tied in the 1kUSD mark. After that the story is funny: "DOOMSWITCH [ON]" for both of us and I bink the probet by losing less than him.
I played nl100 in a homegame... I HAD TO. Noticed there was two fishes (both with over 15k lost according to PTR) playing nl100 hu at a 6max deep table. Snap sit in and let the gamble begin. I Ran decently and finished the session positive.
I was also lucky enough to buy 5% of the Sunday Million of "alealt06" and he made a very deep run, finished in 11th place (Gratz dude!). Now that I think of it maybe I jinxed his possible final table by telling everyone via twitter to rail him!
Thanks to PokerStars 10x vpp status month I also made 200 out of vip stellar rewards and fpp bonuses during the month.
Adding it up:
$800 normal grind +$100 propbet +$300 alealt06 deep run +$200 nl100 homegame +$200 vip stellar rewards and fpp bonuses =$1600 month
As I said earlier in the month I want to get 2k SnGs at least during September so I'm starting my first saturday of the month with a marathonic 8-10 hour session (beginning in about 30min) table ninja isn´t working since the PokerStars new update so I'll only play between 16 and 22 SnGs at a time. I'm hoping to get 150 SnGs at least today. Results to come later.
Ok... so I had to get out of my house because the guy who is supposed to exterminate all bugs (my roomie hates roaches) decided to come early. Now I'm sitting in a cafe waiting for time to pass before I have to hit my first class of the day. There is no possible better time to write my first poker only blog.
As I said a few entries ago I made a fresh start on July 13th and things have gone very smoothly. I've grinded from 500 to 2kUSD (excluding three 500USD cashouts) which makes a total of 3.5kUSD. I've been running pretty bad in my day to day grind and I'm only 1.4k USD up:
but on the other hand I've been very lucky in other things:
Adding 550USD from the milestone, 300USD of Rakeback, 300USD of staking that has gone all right and 500 from playing nl100 against a big fish in a pokerstars homegame that gives us the grand total of ~2.5kUSD up in 45 days... not bad in comparison to Mexican salaries.
I play 180man 2.5USD SnGs and usually mix up some 45man to get a bigger volume, my ROI sucks in 45man but it has proven to be +ev to mix them up and try to maximize profit per hour. I usually play between 25 and 35 tables at the same time.
Why 2.5USD if I could be playing higher? Answer is simple: my life depends on this, that makes me a huge BR nit. I hate swings. Already had a 4k swing in 15USD 180man and I want to avoid history repeating itself. I will move up soon but I want to do it with a BR that makes me feel comfortable. I´m hoping to move up to 3USD+r and 8USD SnGs when I touch a 3.5k BR, that is only 2-3 months from now.
There's a lot more on the topic of my poker life to be told but since I made a fresh start I guessed this was the way to start my blog's first poker entry. Good luck everyone, run good this last 3 August days!
I've had a couple of rough days lately. To be honest everything is ok, but somehow I manage to feel something is out of place.
Life somehow feels complicated, but, school is good... which is quite impressive when I come to think of it since I invest only the time that is needed to pass all my courses and no more, sometimes even less. Poker is going great, made a fresh start from a 500USD bankroll the 13th of July, 47 days ago, and I've already managed to grind it all the way to 2k and this including a couple of "must eat to live" cashouts. I also found a great place to live for the next 6-12 months which makes me feel like I've accomplished something that most people take a lot more time to, which is paying a rent and living out of my own effort.
Life is good now that I gave myself the time to think about it... just moved in to a small city here in Mexico (Torreon, Coahuila) which makes me feel kind of frustrated since I used to live in Mexico City which is a huge city and had so many things to do that my mind managed to always be learning something new. This city is like swimming in a kiddy pool when you've lived all your life with the ocean as a backyard.
Since this is my first post I'll avoid the rant and will try to synthesize what I'm looking to do with this blog so you can know if you're interested or not.
This is not the ordinary poker blog, I'll dump graphs, goals and thoughts on this quite often (probably updating once a week on this matter so I don't lose focus) but it won't be the only topic in this space. I'll talk a bunch about random stuff that takes place around my personal world, this doesnt mean I'll talk about my personal life to often (meeh to be honest I guess I will), but it rather means I will speak about any political, philosophical and social situation that catches my interest and just try to give my opinion on any of this topics. This blog basically is me trying to trap all thing on my mind between my hands, organize them and write them down here.